The Surviving Twin

This memoir chronicles the unique ordeals of identical twin sisters Diana and Julia Lockwood. Even among twins, Diana and Julia were especially close and deeply entwined—they were more than just sisters or best friends, they were like one soul in two bodies. While their total attunement sometimes saved them in funny and unexpected ways, it also eventually destroyed them.
A survivor of sexual assault and anorexia and living with Asperger’s, the author tells her own life story while weaving Julia’s letters and journal entries into the text. While Diana survived the struggles that led her to three suicide attempts, her twin unfortunately took her own life only a year after their father did the same. This book explores the life and relationship of twins separated by tragedy and follows a woman’s struggle to make it on her own.

Diana Lockwood is currently focusing on her health and family life and resides in Northern California.

Diana Lockwood

Format: softcover (6 x 9)
Pages: 262
Bibliographic Info: 18 photos, index
Copyright Date: 2020
pISBN: 978-1-4766-8190-0
eISBN: 978-1-4766-4030-3
Imprint: Toplight Books

1. “That one Diana/Julia girl” 1
2. The Changing Clock 13
3. Embarrassing Games 21
4. It’s Easier to Stay Exactly the Same 32
5. Zitty and Unpretty 39
6. Ounce by Ounce 55
7. Kafkaesque 66
8. Still Forms in a Frenzy 82
9. A 95-Pound Body and a Weak Intellect 87
10. Feral Cats 101
11. Drunk Jack Lemmons 113
12. Playing Dead 126
13. Romantically Asexual 143
14. Saturnine Seekers 155
15. “Thanks for a good life” 162
16. The Rope Tightens 174
17. White Witches 181
18. Leave Me Alone 196
19. Empty Time Capsule 208
20. She Said 221
21. Lessons 229
22. The Crooked Mile 239
Afterword: Door to Nowhere 246